Today has been one of those days that gets added to my list of saddest days ever. I had an ultrasound today and found out that I had a miscarriage around 6 weeks. I would have been 8 weeks or so today. This isn't something that can be explained or anything that can help us better understand. It just wasn't time. I am still trying to convince myself that it isn't my fault. I'm getting there, but I have never been through this before, so I am taking it a bit harder than necessary. Since family is in town this weekend, we had planned on Sea World today. I went in order to 1) not be left alone. I really did not want to be alone today. 2) I needed something to take my mind off of everything. It didn't always work, but at least the puffy eyes went away for a bit. I am canceling all activities for this week, besides one as I am really not in the mood to socialize. Will we try again? Most definitely. I am going to look to the positive side and know that the next time will be perfect.
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Felicia, this breaks my heart! Losing a baby is so hard! I know first hand. I will be praying for comfort for you and the family. Its such a devastating loss. You are an amazing woman to be doing this for someone else. What a blessing you are to that family! Hugs to you my friend! Wish I was there to actually hug you! Love and miss you! Alison
ReplyDeleteMiss Felicia,
ReplyDeleteOh my heart goes out to you. :-(
We have had that news several times, and it is always a grieving proud for us. 1.) It is definitely not your fault! Alison is right, you are a blessing to this family! 2.) I'm glad you have friends and family around you!
I am praying for you, your family, and your birth family.
Love and hugs to you!